What
had triggered my emotions was a dream.....
you had
visited me once again.
Because
we had met there... so many times....
When
the moon was at its brightest......and had lit our world.....
where
we had sat together hand in hand.....by the side of a placid lake.....
oblivious
of everything.....except for the presence of each other....
staring
as far as the eyes permitted..
..travelling....those
ripples of sheen on the currents......
like
always i was too afraid to look at you...lest you would vanish..
and
like a miserable sea creature...
I would go deep ....as deep as one could
fathom.....
into
the darkness of the other world.....
AND
THEN.......
You
were gone..far very far away....
but
you left behind your love and your promise....
to
return..and...to reunite....
we
did’nt need words to give comfort to each other....
coz
i had taught you the language of silence...
silence
that has more eloquence than speech.....
that
is soothing and blissful to the heart...
becoz
what had transpired between us was unadulterated and honest....
because I had accepted u with all your imperfections..and you with all of mine..
to
the world you were just another thing...impure and unchaste...
but
to me you were ...a hope and a belief...
that I wore on my bosom as a prized ornament...
And
so the days passed...
and
the yellow leaves of autumn wore its green cloth...
and
the frozen mountains wept a silent dirge....
meanwhile
i realized that between memory and oblivion
what
stood as a bridge was time...
and
so the course of nature continued...
and
so did my morose life...
my
days, they passed amidst the humdrum of everyday life...
but
my nights,they were like the never ending roads...
the
ones we had walked together....
where
our laughter chimed and mingled with the noise of the cricket....
where
we fought..and we cried....
and
you talking endlessly..and me never losing patience...
except
for now and then.
when
I wanted to scream ’shut up now’ at the top of my voice.....
When
we had lived in the same world..
and
in the same time frame...
we
had met everyday...
defying
the mammoth of a distance between us...
but what to do now...
i
had sensed this was going to come sooner or later...
the
day you had revealed to me the news.....
that
you would be living in some other world....
leaving
behind me and
your memories....
Do u
remember how you had left me...
in
the midst of the ocean on a starry night...
I had closed my eyes ....
coz
i knew when I would open them...
I would see you by my side...
but
this was not to happen....
fears
kept gnawing at my heart....
ill
prognostications kept nudging at my mind....
and I cried..and cried..and cried..
until
there was none left...
with
eyes dried..of hope and longing....
I waded myself through an ocean of tears...
at
daybreak i reached land..
I looked at the shinig gold in the sky...
a
reminder of a new hope..and a new beginning...
except
for the dull ache that weighed me down...
coz
the silent universe was my witness...
.....it
reminded me of the man I had loved......
